Perfectly clear/sharp focus, perfect exposure, perfect composition, perfect lighting, authentic emotion, etc. The list of requirements for taking an image is endless. With each session I do, I strive to give my clients at least a few “perfect” images that capture them in the best way possible. With each session I have, it gets a little easier to run through the list of required settings in my head quick enough to press the button and capture THE shot of the day. I love the challenge, and love the final products even more! I am so grateful to be able to meet so many amazing people and take beautiful pictures of them month in and month out. There’s been something bothering me the past few months that I haven’t been able to articulate until yesterday.
I’m sick of trying to be perfect. It’s unattainable. It’s fake. It’s a lie. It’s not me.
I’m far from perfect and I’ll be the first to tell you! I find joy and peace and happiness in the messiness of my life. It’s where I can have honest conversations and find clarity and healing. It’s where I’m closest to God. I do my best to be transparent and real in my life as a wife, mom, daughter, friend, etc. Yet as a photographer I’ve been trying to portray PERFECTION. It’s been a daily struggle to present this fake portrayal of who I am and what my business is, and I’m tired of trying to convince everyone I’m the “perfect photographer”.
So who am I? I’m still trying to figure that out! I don’t dress how I should. I speak when I “should” be silent. I’m entering my 2nd year of doing Crossfit and as a result I finally feel like I’ve got the upper hand in my battle with eating disorders and depression. I’m doing my best to be a great mom for my 2 girls. I try my hardest to be a great wife to my husband. I strive to have a consistent relationship with God. I LOVE taking pictures, and love having the ability to show people how beautiful they are! I’ve found my voice through photography. It’s so difficult to articulate in words HOW I see you and the world around me, and it’s amazing to be able to just stop and look at an image and say – “See how beautiful you are?”
Yesterday I took the girls up to Upper Park to take some new portraits of them. I wanted something whimsical, dreamy, and NOT PERFECT. I needed to be able to see something on my walls that portrayed the girls as they are now. I fell in love with the final products!
Thank you for taking the time to read this post! I’m hoping to make more visits here to showcase some more REAL LIFE pictures from my business and personal adventures!